" Any patch of sunlight in a wood will show you something about the sun which you could never get from reading books on astronomy. These pure and spontaneous pleasures are 'patches of godlight' in the woods of our experience."

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Perseverance

I will persevere!
I will carry on!
Though it seems life is pointless,
Though it seems I'm going in circles,
God has a plan and a purpose.
I know He will bring me
To the place I ultimately belong.

The clouds are parting,
And the sun is peeking through.
Some days are still dreary,
But I can feel the healing.
For the first time in months,
I can smile freely!
Trusting in God,
Whether I feel His presence or not,
I know He is here,
Carrying me in His arms.

I am weary and stretched,
But He gives me strength
For each new day.
If I am to know Him,
I must share in His sufferings.
Who better to share with
Than my Most High God?

He knows me more intimately
Than any other.
He is the only one who can heal me.
I will press on
And fix my eyes to the goal.
No matter what happens around me,
Though all my friends fail
Or abandon me,
I'll keep my eyes on the prize
For He never fails,
Nor will He leave me!

Monday, August 9, 2010

My Cloudy Days, Part 2

The one thing I was sure of.
The one thing I knew.
It too seems far away,
Lost in my cloudy days.
Then I wonder,
How? How can I be this?
Lord, You were mistaken
When You called me!
I don't meet the standards.
I won't measure up!
I should just forget it.
I'll attempt something else.

When will the clouds pass away?
When will my night turn to day?
I know He cares,
And I do trust Him.
But it's hard to wait,
It's hard to hope
When you don't see any light.
My eyes are dry,
But the tears still come.
When will it end?
When will the valley be over?

With each cloudy day,
My heart hardens more.
I don't want to love.
I don't want to care!
I've given myself before,
I gave too much....

Sunday, August 8, 2010

My Cloudy Days, Part 1



A dark cloud covers me.
The sun may be shining,

But all I see is rain.

I pray for relief.

I beg for freedom.
I know He hears me,

But the answer never comes.

The cloud continues to darken my soul.

My joy has left me.

I feel only sadness.
I feel only darkness.
Sometimes, I feel nothing.
My life is passing quickly,
And I am missing out.

I call out for it to stop.

I pray for slower days.
But it continues to fly by,

Quicker each day.


I do my duties.
I continue each day.
I put on a mask,
And cover my pain.
Everything has become monotonous!
God doesn't answer,

So I stop asking.

I know it's me.
I know I should try harder...

But why?
Life seems pointless.