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Like a Tree

Help me to be like a tree, Standing tall amidst the storms Arms raised to the sky  Reaching for You Like green branches ripe with leaves and fruit. Let my roots grow deep And feed off Your words, To give me strength when flood waters rise; When the winds blow away  weak branches and leaves. Help me to be like a tree, Flexible enough to bend with the wind  To know when to let   my leaves die and fall away But strong enough to stand firm through all storms Roots planted deep in Your love. I can endure all things if I am like a tree.

The Little Girl Who Saved Me

Transparency is here and it isn't pretty. I haven't posted anything in a while because I felt like I had nothing to say. This has been on my mind a lot lately and I feel like I need to put my story out there. Over the past few years, I have been struggling spiritually. I haven't been attending church regularly, haven't been reading my Bible or praying regularly. I've mostly been questioning everything I've ever believed. There have been moments of clarity and renewal - moments where I'm on top of the mountain. I believe, I trust, I pray and I know God is there with me... BUT... Most of the moments have been the opposite...Is God here? I don't know. I can't tell. I go weeks without talking to Him and He to me. I go weeks without even thinking about Him. I honestly don't know what I believe anymore. If you can't tell, I am at one of those low points right now - possibly the lowest I have ever been. Yesterday, I cried a lot. I cried because